Flying with white dead

I was there in the middle of the car sodden of the evil smoke. My head was divided in my emotions. I hearted them since back seat improvising their down town rap, and I could ascertain it. My brain almost sere by the lighter could identified how stupid was that, and I felt myself like nothing. I remembered those green and mature eyes at 1:30 Pm. Those eyes who just looked at me with that empty shame; and it is normal, People have already seen me like that, like real garbage. Another time; another time again. My head repeats that bland rap. It is like a virus around my body and my thoughts. A sickness in my tired soul. Gram for a kiss while all night in clouds means a thousand times Messed for his arms. Tomorrow is going to be another day, or I hope that.

Tonight

Tonight. Tonight will be the day. Only this night, I will received to old-mean’ Oriana.  It was only time to see the signal. Maybe was the cigars; maybe was de beer, or the necessity to be high all the time could be the powerful reason. She is not bad girl; she tried to do de best, but she couldn’t to convince you: she couldn’t be perfect. That old enemy is back, and Oriana cries under table. The prison is across street. Oriana’s little fingers are crazy in the gloves, and the evil hands of that guy trespassing all that secret pain on her skins and heart. She believes in Him, but tonight, your soul is already dirty. What kind of aspects can cataloged a lonely’ simple girl?  Everything is confuse now, but the dark side is just a vision. She is a good “nothing to world”.

The Ten Commandments of Emma

It is time to take the control of our bodies Guys. If we are those that eat just for eat, or it is difficult to to you working out every day, now you can find your answer.  Being thin is a necessity, it is a way to live and we can’t live correctly if we don’t have the control of our appetite. But now, here are the principal porpoise to get our skinny figure.

1.    Drink one glass of water every our. It will make you feel full

2.    Eat ice or gum when hungry. This will make your body think it had food without the calories.

3.    Brush your teeth constantly so you won’t be tempted to eat afterwards

4.    Use smaller plates and utensils so it seems like you ate more

5.    Sleep at least six hours a day. If you get less than six hours, this can lower your metabolism by 15%

6.    Make yourself a snack, but instead of eating throw it away. Leave the dirty dishes where your parents or roommates can find them. They will think you ate

7.    Use Mia just in emergency.  When you provoke the vomit, that could be prejudicial for your health, but if you had to eaten, you can go to the closest bathroom and throw the food away.

8.    Prepare a list of excuses as to why you can’t eat: you are sick; you are a vegetarian, allergic, etc. You’d be amazed at how many excuses there are.

9.    If you start to feel hungry, do sit-ups or punch yourself in the stomach (optional). You will not feel hungry anymore

10. Be Dedicated and constant with your goals, and don’t tell any one about your life, at least that you know that person is agreeing with you way to live.

There are just a few important tips this helps to get your goals. So don’t give up and keep your mind in the picture of your skinny body.

THE STORY OF MI LIFE, LIKE YOURS

There is a special topic that is in my head all the time: the weight. Since I have memory, the beauty was the only think that people around me saw. The children and teachers in my school always called me ugly (when I was a child). I tried to ignore their comments, but something in my head and in my heart was broken. Now I am not the same girl. I used to enjoy food, I never worried about the calories and the weight, but now that is my routine. It is hard to listen people say: ¡you are beautiful! Because I can’t believe it anymore. I can remember when I was happy and sociable. I always laughed, I enjoyed every moment of my life, but at some point I lost the meaning of life. Now I always wonder, why I am alive, and I don´t know the answer yet. My family said that I need to have God in my life; however, sometimes that is not enough.

Now, you know part my story. Although it is intimate and painful, and most people cannot understand it, ¿what do you think? ¿do you think that I am crazy? I don’t know what you are thinking in this moment. I don’t know if it is a good thought or a bad one. The only thing I can say is this is what I am.